Now, since I was the only one that didn't put sunscreen on myself the first day, and got totally sunburnt, I was in need of some serious aloe vera and moisturizer something-something.
And although I didn't get my hands on any vinegar to help with the sunburn- I did find this stuff which was awesome:
I haven't been sunburned for years....but I guess being in the sun all day is no test for your "tan-ness"...ha ha ha ha And I was amazed at how quickly my skin recovered after I slathered this on me...I mean, I coated my skin in this a lot! ha ha ha
This trip was filled with so much beauty, with sunsets like this, and the moonlight at night seemed to glow so much differently there. My heart was so very sad at times...I heard a James Taylor song that reminded me of my dad and tears just started running down my face. As I'd see things my dad would love, my heart would be frozen in pain and sadness that I won't ever hear his voice here on Earth again and even though people were happy all around me, playing in the water...no one could tell that it wasn't just water on my face...that tears were in my eyes.
I sat at dinner, watching the sunset...and tears just ran down my face. I didn't want anyone to know I was sad, so I would try to smile real fast...but as I saw everything so beautiful that my eyes just felt like they couldn't take it in fast enough....
I wondered how much more beautiful heaven will be. And how all of this probably isn't close to as amazing as everything my dad is seeing there.
I can't really type about it too much more, because my keyboard will be covered in tears...
wishing I was still eating a shave ice instead of doing laundry at home now (ha ha ha), huge hugs and a handful of hope, your kandee
If you wanna see how I carry everything in the airport- click on this.
7 comments:
Dear Kandee, I know you have not had the best couple of weeks, but you have made my summer so much better by typing you blog! You make me smile and laugh with your funny pictures of Ellie, the sunsets you post pictures of or you showing me you smile in a photo in a restroom (ha ha)! I just wanna tell you that you are amazing, and you inspire me and so many others to be a better person, to smile to people on the streets and to show our loved ones that we love them. Every day! When I read your blog it's a little glimpse of sunlight in my day. And when you are ready I will LOVE to see you videos again! I must tell you that I am so addicted to you videos that while you haven't posted any new ones, I have been watching almost every video you hade made! Love from Norway <3
Im so sorry for your loss. I am 14 and have never really lost a close family member, i have lost a dog though. Its hard for people to take in the thought Of someone being upset over an animal but he was family to me... I had every reason to be upset. Thank you so much for everything! I am a very crafty person and you are my inspiration!
Kandee- I read your blogs every day. Your personality shines through with your words even though we can't see you like a video. My heart goes out to you. I'm sorry you have to carry such sadness in your heart. Just wanted you to know even in your dark days or moments- you are still making us smile. That is amazing. Just know what a difference you are still making here on earth. I hope that offers you the tiniest speck of comfort in your sad moments. You make a difference. And you are a gift. :)
Kandee when I first heard about your dad I couldn't relate to your pain but this past week I have a taste of it. A dear friend of me, my mom, and my sister is in the hospital and he right now is paralyzed and we pray to God that God will lift him up from the hospital bed. It may not be the same thing but the pain we both feel is kind of the same. I repeat this quote many times a day because its my favorite and helps a lot: "Life fractures us into little pieces. It harms us, but its how we glue those pieces back together that makes us stronger. " I love you Kandee and have an amazing day! (:
-Gigi
Hi Kandee. I feel your pain, my father passed away too. I was 19 years old, it takes a while to "get over it" because you never really do. But my comfort came from my faith. I knew, without a doubt, that my dad was singing and praising in heaven, and just knowing that gave me great peace. I hope you can read this and, and I hope you can start feeling a little less sad. We love you.
Love and hugs and strength to you kandee! you inspire me with your huge heart!! I love you!!!
I'm so sorry that you're going through this pain. I lost my mom 9 years ago to a choking accident. She was 56. It gets easier with time but you will always have the part that's missing. You are much more than makeup to so many of us. Take all the time you need to heal. My heart hurts for you.
Xo from NC
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