What's that in your eye...

Me, yesterday.

4th of July

Lake Tahoe...where I've spent many a 4th of July.

 My dad would have loved my "patriotic sunnies"...if you want to know where I got them...from my favorite "mustache sunglasses" company, Sun-staches.

 I may not have worn make-up, or done anything fancy with my hair, but I did put some bracelets on.

 I loved this view...the red, white and blue tables....and the blue of the water. The trees look like beautiful jewelry, decorating the sky.

It was a little hard on my heart.
I always have fun with my mom and the kids...but I just could help but think how much more fun we'd have with my dad there.
I wished my sister was with us too- she always makes things fun.
And I tried, in all my moments to have fun, and as Creedence Clearwater Revival's song, Bad Moon Rising- which was one of my dad's favorite songs came on the big speakers at the beach, my heart just missed him so much. I kept thinking all day what he would say about everything...my fun sunglasses, the funny little old men that dressed up on 4th of July costumes, how crowded the beach was, if he would have thought our food was good.
My dad probably would have given the little old men thumbs up and told em' how he loved their "festive" outfits. He would have made the kids laugh all day.
And then in the darkness, as the fireworks when off...

And more than just "the 4th of July in my eye"....
tears began to run down my face...
I know my life will never be the same. As I saw people all day, with their dads...I hope they realize how precious that is. How much people should appreciate each other.
As the tears slowly, stopped running down my face...even as the fireworks were still dazzling the sky...I told all my little family "I love you".

This 4th of July, had little moments that sparkled and I hope the kids will remember that we had little moments of fun...
and in the silence in my mind, and behind the smile I tried to shine at people around me....
my heart was.....sad.
 
Oh, Dad....I miss you so stinkin' much...it hurts. And I know these fireworks are nothing compared the "oohs" and "ahhs" of things in Heaven.

I know my dad would have had so much fun with us yesterday...
Still singing, "Don't go out tonight, there's bound to be a fight, there's a bad moon on the rise"....
and no matter how my heart misses my dad, I will try to make everything fun, because that's what he did....

off to go make something fun in his honor... and hugs for your heart in case it's hurting too, kandee

Click here to see some of our fun moments we had yesterday...